I roll over in bed and look at the clock. It’s 4:25 am and the bathroom is calling me. I slip quietly out of bed and keep the lights turned off; I don’t want to wake my husband, Trent. I tiptoe my way back from the washroom and crawl back into bed. As I settle myself down a thought comes to mind. It’s been almost a year since my father’s passing. I miss him terribly. He had such a strong but quiet nature. He was such a great listener. I guess that’s why we learned so much from him. That may sound ironic: How can someone who’s so quiet be a good teacher? But I believe the best teachers in life are also the best listeners.
My mind drifts to the piece I will soon need to write in our local paper, the annual memoriam of him. I start talking to him through thought and I can feel his loving presence. I know he’s right here listening to my every thought. A simple question that all of us often wonder about comes to mind. I ask him, what’s the difference between here and there?
It’s been almost two years since my 44-hour near-death experience (NDE) and although I now know what lies ahead when I die, I’m wondering what he’s experiencing–he’s been there almost a year. Within a few seconds my here and there question has had a response, and the answer is nothing short of another divine sign. It is, simply, the letter t: The difference between the two words is only a letter, and the difference between earth and heaven is another t—the cross.
I begin to smile at the beautiful symbolism of the t in which I’ve put all my trust. I lie here wanting to share what I’ve just learned with Trent, but its now 4:30 am, so I stop myself from waking him. He’s been working hard and he needs his rest. I’ll share this epiphany with him in the morning.
A cross in the darkness
In the stillness of the night, you may think no one is listening, but you couldn’t be more wrong. Whenever I open my mind and soul up to the greater power of our Creator and all of the heavenly helpers, unbelievable experiences happen. That night I lay in bed overtaken by emotion, but somewhat amused by how the spiritual world is so willing to share with us all the secrets it holds. All we have to do is ask, listen for the answer (even if it’s not an answer we want) and then trust that the answer comes from God. When we ask with a sincere heart and out of love, all that we need to know will be revealed to us through divine signs.
I drift off to sleep again and before I know it morning has arrived. Trent heads into town; he enjoys his weekday morning coffee with friends. I, however, love my morning tea in the stillness of my home. My mind is rested and I’m ready to create.
Morning is the best time for me to write in my journal or work on my book. I also love painting in the morning. This morning my thoughts are taken back to the knowledge I gained last night. Who would have ever thought that in the middle of the night I would be given such a simple answer to such a deep question?
I curl up on the couch in my living room with pen and paper in hand and begin to journal my new findings. Just for fun, I do a Google search on “the difference between here and there.” I find an interesting explanation to the definition of these two words on a site called differencebetween.com: The word here is used to indicate something that’s within the range of one’s vision, whereas the word there is used to indicate something that is out of the range of one’s vision.
While we live out our physical life on earth we have no problem in believing in our existence when we’re here because here is visible, however because we can’t see the heavenly realm we have a difficult time believing in the existence of there. The definition used on the website makes perfect sense when we stay within the earthly realm. However, since my NDE, my vision has been changed and I see with my soul. The t in the word there will always bring me back to the cross of our salvation.
I’m so thankful for all the signs I’ve been given, and for the new ones that arrive daily. I’m also grateful to have recognized the t that stands so firmly in the middle of these two words. The cross symbolizes love and forgiveness; both of these actions need to take place in our lives while we are here, in order for us to move there peacefully.
Ask, listen and be watchful